Day 326: Questions & (No) Answers (The Aid Bitchslap): This is a sad journal entry by an aid worker in Haiti. When he wrote it, he was nearing the end of a year-long stint, and he’s tired. He’s been worn down by what he’s seen, and the people he’s tried to help.
He writes bitterly of an encounter on the street.
"Fuck you!" We pull over, not because of the comment, but because we’re at the chicken stand we were headed toward to buy some food. My patience is worn thin. We get out of the car a few paces from where the guys are. "Masisi! Masisi!" They’re calling us faggots. Really? Really? I don’t even know you. Fuck this. I hammer back at them. "You think we’re faggots? Is that what you think? I think you’re a bunch of uneducated, ignorant idiots. Instead of playing football in the street and telling blans you don’t know to go fuck themselves, why don’t you go to school? You’re young men. You’re not kids. Do something with your lives." I want to keep going. I want to tell them they are pathetic. I want to tell them that you shouldn’t tell someone to go fuck themselves one day then come groveling to them the next asking for a job or money or food or a house. I want to tell them they are the problem with this fucked up country. I want to, but I don’t, because I know, despite the anger, that while they are ignorant, and they do deserve to get called on their shit, they don’t deserve to be shamed for their condition.